To the people in my past life
who couldn't come to the conclusion and give it a try
I dedicate the sweat I made during sessions to you
I wish you were still here to celebrate it too
so many knew, what I wanted to do
and each one of them perceived that I wasn't built for this. True, but
I sucked it up, flipped a couple jobs, hit the road and showed the crowd the reason that they should applaud
yes, I'm not famous by any means
I've got big dreams, swimming in a deeper stream
sometimes when you're drowning all alone is when you find hope
that little sliver to your self control
I remember driving avenue to park place
searching for your fine face, never did I find grace
they say she left the day I took off
and haven't heard a word since, she left me with this postcard
it said nobody's going get you like I did
we were playing games and you never understood it
and so I wished upon a shining star somewhere in the Midwest that my request gets met
people say I'm odd, too strange for my age range
crazy cause I feel the same way about your brainwaves
how do you maintain, day after day after shift after shift the same cycle of bullshit
10 years pass, I'm not going to reunions and explaining why my movement hasn't made an improvement
I hate what I'm doing except writing these damn songs
you know you're probably right we won't get along
looking back on each class interaction
I learn a little more about the person that I photographed
I never smile in pictures the only reason is I'm scared to, bad luck is my friend and he don't get the clues
that I'm happy makes my brain hurt moments when I'm laying by the park with my people no shirt
no socks, no connection to the world except your thoughts
exploring every crevice that you pick apart
I know my skills an art, painted on a canvas
learning through your word choice the next interaction
and I'm glad because people are so damn beautiful
and one day soon you're going learn the truth
but until then, find me on my bicycle
running every red lights dodging every obstacle
dying for the phone to display your name
it's ok, I've got some time left I can wait