I'm not made for this meaningless setup Build me up break me down is the usual cup That i tend to sip from friends don't my sensitivity Cause i want more from women then i did during puberty So sue me, i expect you to be into these Socially awkward tendencies that i display oh so vividly The vision be that i cant get down just to get down I'm being serious ill turn you down if your drunk and in town Don't chase me round unless you want me forever I'm not settling for less then a enticing endeavor So yes you like my songs and yes i think your gorgeous But I'm a man with morals miss, I need more then your legs open Sorry to say I hate the way world works You probably hate me now cause i wont take off your shirt But thats just how am my mother taught me respect inebriated women don't need me to create more stress Like Take the anger out on me like you always have Print out my image place it on your punching bag Lets cut the ties to the strings we will never have And tell everyone you I'm wrong and I'm a shithead Dressed to kill as usual nobodies bothering me Another night completely uninterested all i want to do is leave To a place where the ghosts take out my name. Staring off into this blackness as if its changed I strain my vocal cords sharing with you life' decay Amazed that I'm standing on this stage still to this day I let a lot of life go by never blinking in the seizures Dimmed the features took the role of playing a teacher but it goes, you don't like hearing knowledge within the speakers its like hows it feel to hear i told you so lets start the awkward interaction till the damage is culled Hate me all you want make me your statuette martyr Sling the fodder towards the gods asking for a better offer I tried to save every soul Ive contacted But all they do is blame for the faults of their actions The son of fathers ambition and a mothers brooding fear When I'm gone sing this song hope it quells your meager ears

I Cant seem to wash the stains off my soul The pain that unfolds is finally ending its toll I'm breaking this mold blown out finally free The queens timing was nothing short of catastrophe and its this life i lead every sentimental moment that Brings me closer to the point of auto focus I wrote this to tell you all hopes about 5'8 Dark hair dark eyes with a booty that gyrates I'm Just keep trying to keep the plate full Everyday trying to show you why I'm so damn grateful For every time i stared deep into your eyes And saw a piece of my future yes it looks like a good life Just make it last make it right thats all I'm hearing Between microphones and tour maps thats whats been reeling Ive got a feeling this could last past my lifetime If I could look into my future maybe use a lifeline Just take your time josh savor every moment and stop with the puts downs she seems turned off from it So this goes out to the girl in my world Don't let me let you down causing rift between curls I cant figure you out you cant figure me out I don't know why my minds filled with such doubts Ive got a good thing now Ive got a good thing how The rains coming down but all i see are brighter clouds So strip the shield down break me off a piece of you Tends to be to personal but i want to share something true My life a skewed within the dreams of a peaceful new And i guess you can I'm smiling more then a few Times a day my life has its moments of crazy From the moment i wake till I'm sleeping and maybe We have some common goals wants of being with somebody cool Separating from the past were better then those two I guess I'm saying happiness is what you make of it And I'm glad I'm sharing it with you thanks for the embracement I don't know where the road going to take us But as long as your there I'm down for the cause Because you make me laugh make smile with each statement Pick apart my flaws make me stop with the hating I feel amazing and its shocking how it came to be The light at end of the tunnel was there but never seen Just stick around i swear in worth my weight in gold And one day you'll know when the plans have unfolded

Lets waste the daybreak sitting by a broken soul tossed by another role cost to date is tattered on the walls all he does it fall down by the wayside scared cause he hates life lifts the blade towards the windpipe lets talk about strife hes got a wife that hates everything about him cant stand be around so whats wrong with her frown she doesn't know that he hates his job but works late just to keep dinner on the plate maybe spark a debate but the situation lacks every bit of everything that he once loved about what consumed his dreams he just wants to scream out how life is such a fucking mess tired of the tall talk that his parents address you need to get out thats what mind says as the drill bit slips inside him temple for the permanent drip but what is this his daughters walking into his environment looks up to see daddy trying to rush the retirement last vision, bastard act of gods children last call for dialog hes slipping out of times religion and as he cuts the incision all hes ever thinking is that his daughter was the light that shined through the prism thats what happens when the stress builds up in a closed room tends to shatter walls makes it ever consuming so next time when your letting loose the rage realize that this person is still a marred symbol to the life gift.

I spend my nights alone Searching for life within these brittle bones Touch fingertips to keyboards is how I wrote poems About the the roads I've known paths well beaten down Seemingly enough want to hear about my dreaming now Don't try to decipher it I've spent many years guessing what it means who was there all the pain does is build lessons For me to learn from some would sooner see me drown then lend a hand out to this fraction of a frown I stay away from people cause all they do is disappoint me Spend lots of time with exes cause they know builds this tree Its water and seeds its the feel to be needed By the one that I've been chasing yet she never gets the reading Writing balled after balled you guys can keep guessing Which is the one that I'm contained within the capsules real message I feel success is something I don't taste that often Can't seem to remove the dirt that I've put on top of this coffin Call it the death of hope the death of love the death of something pure You think you got the answers to questions I've been asking sure Go ahead and test this trust a little more You've seen the score 10 to none your always right I'm always wrong So string me along but bring me good tidings Ive felt the force of thousands every night that we were fighting Strike like lighting i hope your world crumbles For every minute i spent on the phone crying about my troubles The rubbles clearing now I'm building better foundations Don't come stomping through my town when the rain brings devastation calculated every fuck up every time we had a difference Talk about taking advantage i should have left you the very instance came home from Maine you stained my soul that night Another chance I get to play the child lost in constant fright Now my sight slightly skewed cant find the good inside people Only fueling this fool to find out nobodies equal A sequel to this ya only time will tell If I'm to fall into trap sent back to earth from hell Call me out when I'm happy saying its just too much That i should give a piece to her when the roads are rough Ive wrote enough about you i hope you find what you wanted Cause were not getting back together this much i can promise Lets be honest with each other for once you lied so many times That lately Ive been wondering where the truth died I feel like since i survived I'm better person for it no longer trudging through the forests of lost for some opening This planet is too small for the injustice Ive felt Ive got another in world good food and great health So this is it my death Ive found the cure for the venom No longer hiding in hell I'm stepping up in levels

Waking up to sun shining through the glass panes Can't focus on a single thing for my eyes strained What time is it 930 shit I'm so late Its safe to say that's the start of a great day Roll out of bed realize what I did last night Stayed up late playing xbox till early light I can't help that though gotta keep my skills up Cause if I don't some kids gonna have luck And take me out ruin my streak with a kill These are my thoughts while I try to find my will I stay steady dodging bullets trying to stay alive Cause if I don't mortals gonna laugh so alright Pick up the pace figure out what I'm doing right And right about now the top spot is mine And right about now its three in am Call it what you will I live for these meetings So realize what you got in this life A chance to make wrong another chance to make right So this is to people that keep me happy here And make me wanna never fall asleep when timing near Paradise is my life sitting by my phone Just waiting on a call from my girls ring tone and when it happens shit its on Staying in her arms talking about life till the early dawn I know my friends are saying josh your so sappy Oh wait I thought you all wanted me to be happy So crappy were the days before the sun rays Lighten up your face brought you down from the cloud space I feel the hate all around when we go out to eat They look at you and stare wonder why your with me I try to say I'm on the fence about it Could be my good hair bad looks or worse habits Its so tragic that people can't be happy for us They try to break us down something I can't muster So feel love as bellows from the songs I wrote About the girl who has the key inside her puffy coat I guess my life could better but in having fun Living every dream until the timing of sun comes That Ive got to buckle down deal with my demons Paying off my debt to society no more scheming Until then I'm pushing my limits touring this nation dealing with toll booth critics We break rules deal hope maybe score a little funds I'm only 24 man Ive got more will to run A trucker's son thats probably how the bug got in me Sleeping in my car and if i could hotel lobbies Sloppily traveling as a tour vet vagabond My moms hates the idea of a rapper as a son My friends idolize wish that they could take a chance My girls a little envious of my traveling past Ive seen a lot took a little along this road of dreaming glass is half full but I'm more then gleaming

You ever feel like this whole life is a test Another piece tossed on the plate just to see what left And yet not a day goes by that stress doesn't build Canceling classes cause you cant capture the will Too many times Ive lost light to overanyalizing Sitting in the corner of a room wondered why I'm crying I'm sick of trying someday ill be a better person But for now I'm only thirsting for an end to this diversion tell me I'm wrong like you've never wanted to escape From this place from this life from the things you hate Degradation of earth is getting worse Its like your taking a gun to my chest and letting rounds burst through dispersing notions life getting better Thick smog, bad air companies are getting clever More ways then one to hide the process so while your laughing at me I'm tallying up losses throw your hands up if life have never loved you I want to know where your from and what you've been through We all got time there really nothing left to do Except trade stories from the tired and truth now throw your hands if life has never fucked you I want to know where your from and what you've been through We all got time there nothing really left to do Except trade stories from the loving and few My ambitions got me swinging towards the fences But as hard as i try they never let up never let me in Call me Jobe the joke god tends to laugh at Placing wagers on my soul waiting for me to crack Ill attack back with a bit more of emotion put it all on myself never letting the door open So stop the parlor tricks acting all astonished when I step to the stage and share my pieces of life ends You'd love to share the truth but to tough to do so spinning tales of adventure like Robinson Caruso Tends to be your foray id love to save the day Oh what life's great and you got a job that pays Your probably lying trying to make yourself feel worth And when no ones around you let the pain hurt So if your crowing bout being local legends understand I'm touring grabbing peoples attention

lets set it off again I'm sitting,g here counting stars Like my life could ever fit into these 16 bars Counting scars like whats the next song about the bills piling up and the rents due in full amount Dude who you fooling now, another song about a girl Well thats my life measured down to a single curl I put my all into this rap, so if i ever make it I can say i wasn't lazy and just trying to save this Id like to think I'm bringing something special to the table True life stories from this white boy of gepetto So let it go feel the words Ive been rhyming out Call me anything you want i got your girl listening now She knows what I'm about tends to like the songs i make downplays your role in her life like the election date Shes steady dreaming of the next time I have a show and shes not letting you know until she hits the door Dude chill stop calling her a whore Cause honestly the show wasn't over till 4 And now I walk to her car like its nice to meet you Tell your boy to buy my next CD when he comes through And that was it, as much as i would take her home I got moral codes and shes still all yours So for once in life appreciate it

If your calling me up its best to know my real name Never been known to spit game only hang back and build frames The chains i used to wear held my head down proudly Couldn't imagine another where id thought id be happy But here i am dust sounds my lungs with every inhale Honesty has got me here push the button for the emails Getting more respect then expected started collecting the checks If i forget your name its cool I'm just forgetful its A funny feeling when the crowd starts cheering if you care sing along ear to ear i get beaming with the notion you took time to learn the words Ya I'm a bit disturbed but its cool shits absurd Try to meet females outside who don't know I'm a rapper Cause i don't feel accomplished with my life's past chapers Spend more time writings about girls then ever meeting them Oh ya this is one of my biggest problems I'm still chasing dreams 25 and cant seem to see straight Came to rock a show got canceled so were on the freeway So leave me a date when to come to your town I came to share stories emoh came throw down Cant afford a brand new ride cause i got albums to press Stack those issues on the table with the bills i upset They calling me up asking when the money going to clear I say cool give it a rest Ive got a real winner here Take an I.O.U. but don't cash until my rent is due Who'd of knew that someone would appreciate my cruel Sense of humor stressing out about old relationships Get a grip with yourself josh no need to trip Still I'm sick with the emotions that push through fingertips Pen and paper is too old school for this computer whiz Planned on touring blowing before the ripe age of 30 Yet I'm early to the party and well below my earnings Surely enough got the talent to take this to level 4 The ambitions still oozing out the celebrated form Too weird for the norm and too norm for my old crew Yet my songs push me forward man what else am i to do The highways my second home i like to pen my songs here Scaring everyone thats rides within the doors that i steer Yet i cant stop feeling fine when inspirations clocked God I tend to talk a lot about my problems during set slots Girls ask me why i pen the songs they hear on myspace And when the albums hitting store shelves to this date Lets get it straight, i write rhymes to express consistently how my days are getting numbered and my mood is always shitty Guess i want your pity but its irrelevant to clear Up all the zits i got popping from the sweat that appears Heres a beer nope don't drink barley with my DJ We chose another path some call me a cheapskate But i lost some weight monetary and pounds And now women think they can fix my problems bound I'm not around find me on a stage making kid respect me Going back to the pad to fix a couple lines they envy

Trickle down emotions hit the paper frequently On stage wondering why these women wanna sleep with me Too be honest I'm nerd no other way around it Hold a pose for those trying capture key moments The bolder i get the more people feel the frequency Don't feel accomplished till i get a college degree But instead ill write another open poem About the beauty that i witness everyday inside the open forum trying hard to build upon my fan base Toured the states went to Canada and made myself a name Hdub i start to laugh when the people say it Cause my mind doesn't take actually having favorites Getting greeting cards from a million miles away Its safe to say Ive made an impact in a small way So heres to building with my friends on another trip Outside of our comfort zone let get it right real quick I let my less then great talents shine so much more Open the door its either that or I'm sleeping on the floor Cant ignore phone calls cause it might be some pay And I'm broke cause rap never made me learn to save Charge it to the game get a publicist that will push you Thats the only advise my favorite rappers ever push through Its probably true cause my moms still complaining But I'm having fun people sing along shits insane So I'm through with the idea of putting down a Mic Maybe a few years back if idve been push right I would've scared every bone in my body till i had none And finally finished what i set out to accomplish So raise it up man we all got a real dream And me I'm living pretty inside my small scene King of the heap well maybe not but I'm getting close Known for rocking shows telling stories and jokes I live my life through music other spin fairy tales Changing stories every day hoping that they don't fail I'm too honest for my own good gotta separate opponents Call you out if i know it its better then throwing blows Owning up to my mistakes take another song to make Tears stop rain drops tend to let me escape I guess I'm one in a trillion but still to this date Gotta have a back plan if you know what I'm saying Spraying thoughts on an empty canvas thats the process Let the stress build inside to find some form of artist And I'm trying harder everyday to up my writing now My friends all freestyle harder then I flip rounds Sound off if your sore from the backtalk I sleep on floors and my friends thinks something to applaud But i keep moving froward hope somebody finds me Picks me up from my debt makes me see real discovery Ive got plans to build a family but its not in the future I'm too cued on this music anything seems clueless I'm used to shit storms so my songs follow suit But i got great stage presence who would've knew That this shy 25 guy could hold a crowds attention Man i cant keep a conversation when I'm not entertaining

She sits and stares at the reflection of the television Everyday its the same thing. The remote is an extension of herself trying to be free Essentially escaping this life every time she watches reruns. I can't blame her really The girl barely lives life just to survive the day. I try to show her the Technicolor vision of dreams That there really is more to this place then ghosthunters. That's one of her favorites. I think I know why. The ghost of her minds past tend to haunt her sleeping silence, every night the somber sound of her breath is destroyed by the images of her ancient society. So shes trying to find a way to help. To help lead these living spirits away to the place that you don't goto. The very essence of what her worth is magnitude times sincerity See she used to care about which scars would show Now she can't compare wither she was meant to be saved or left for dead This was the girl I found years ago A swollen soul with a swollen heart To used to her dad not caring about anyone but himself Too used to her complacent mother not seeing her daughter dying Too used to this life Shes sick of playing the patty cake palmsto your ever growing disdain for her beauty Truly only looking for a companion which she can truly be just herself Shes still digging for that treasure chest The key oh well she keeps it in her pocket always by her side as if by chance she will spot in this pile you call rubbish the answer to her ever longing questions They call it life i bet she calls it unforgiving They call it love i bet she calls it torture I can relate miss if not to you but to that statement. I hope you find that picket fence soon. If you need help painting, let me know.